Tears for the Seniors - Original Poem

Emotions are brewing and tears prepare themselves,
Today is significant for now the Seniors leave,
Loosing friends to the world past me,
Moving though the day and waiting.
Tears will flow,
That much I know,
But when, where, and why
Will only be answered when the time comes.
Charish these memories of those that now take their leave,
Remember the friends, crushes, and memories,
For soon they may depart.
Bowing out of my life as they take a step away,
A step forward into the real world.
The final bell looms over our heads now,
And with it I believe the self-control will dissolve.
Tears will rush down their owner's cheeks.
Will they remember me?
I sure do hope so and I know I will remember them.
These are my tears for the Seniors.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Everything - Original Poem

Finally figuring it out,
I'm not at all a loser like they said,
They were wrong and I am not ugly,
My voice should be heard and not hidden,
Popularity in high school doesn't actually mean
Everything.
Maybe now they will figure it out,
They will see that I am actually a fun person,
I am beautiful inside and out,
My voice is wonderful because it loves being honest,
And although I am a weirdo by others' standards I believe I am
Everything.
Now don't get me wrong and think I'm full of myself,
I just want to show the world that I will no longer back down
From the overwhelming pressure to be someone other than myself,
I can now write the things I feel and the world does listen,
You are my proof that someone in fact may care about my
Everything.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Ears - Original Poem

Listen up, now,
Listen with your ears,
They'll tell you of my secrets,
Unless they are full of earwax,
Listen up, now,
Don't pearce your earlobes until you know,
Listen up, now,
Your ears will tell you why.

Brand New - Original Poem

Starting to love myself again is such a wonderful feeling,
Starting to believe that my life will continue improving,
A wonderful thing to believe, a wonderful to love to feel.
I am proud of what I can do now,
Proud enough to let you know,
Happy enough to share with the world,
I am practically brand new!

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Confused - Original Poem

One side dealt with, one side bran' new.
Some feelings handled, some have run amiss.
Now I must sit and wonder, now I must figure it all out.
My feelings are jumbled, my feelings are true.
I do not lie in my writing, I do not fake myself.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

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I Wanted To Know - Original Poem

Screams fill my mind,
I punish my stupidity,
Knowing very well it would happen,
Someone would understand
And it could easily spread.
Why do I do this?
I never want someone to know,
Then I lay the clues out,
All neat and in a row.
I am not desperate for attention,
I guess parts of me just wanted to know
What would be said if you understood,
And now somebody knows.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

One-Way Love, For You Do Not Know - Original Poem

I can't watch you go,
Yet stopping you would be wrong.
I love you too much to see you leave,
You don't even know of my feelings for you.
I love you!
That should mean so much,
But I have not the guts to say it to your face.
If only you could read this
And know it was wrote for you.
I do not want the wrong person to think, though,
That this was meant for them.
I do not think you will read this,
And even if you do,
I have kept my feelings decently hidden,
So I suppose the last few encounters...
They will have to do.
After all,
You will be gone soon,
I have no doubt of that.
Many big plans fill your mind,
Plans to better the world and to create something new.
You draw the houses so well,
Your hand writing says more than just words,
And although you seem not to know,
I have recently learned,
Just how much I love you.
Love is a strong word,
That I know.
Yet I still use it because I believe it is true.
You have always drawn my attention.
Unique, kind, and understanding.
You have patience so many seem to lack.
Uncaring about what others will think,
You do what you want,
Do not let the world judge you.
And for that,
I love you.
Or I should say I love you more.
I want you to know,
But my courage lacks,
So I guess all I can now do
Is hope you learn of my feelings...
Before it is too late.
And too late approaches soon,
Like the morning rays,
They start slowly,
Then before you know it,
They are high above you and the time rushes past.
I believe that is how time has become.
My senior year approaches,
Yours draws to an end.
You plan for college,
Somewhere far from near.
What can I do now?
I believe I can do little...
Wish the best for you and hope you achieve greatness,
Knowing you have it in you,
Believing by what I have already seen,
That greatness is not far off,
Just as our time together -
Without really being together,
Grows to a close.
Farewell is coming soon and I dread it's appearance,
But I have to stay strong through it.
'There will be another' I remind myself half-heartedly.
Yet for now you appear to be the one,
The one I want so badly to be with.
I love you,
I almost wrote your name.
That is how much I want you to know.
But you never will.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

My Future - Original Poem

Senior Year approaches...
My Junior Year is nearly at its end...
Terrifying to think about, really.
Yet I must think about it and plan.
Plans must be made for the future:
College, Jobs, and Other Activities.
My future could be incredible...
Or I could ruin it by ignoring its arrival...

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

I Hurt You - Original Poem

Believe in yourself,
Trust whatever you must
In order to make it
Through the countless times
That I hurt you.
Unavoidable -
That is what I tell myself.
But I know better,
I know every time I hurt you,
How I hurt you,
And yet I have no clue why.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

You Minus Abuse = A Better You - Original Poem

Scratch away the past,
Claw into the ones who hurt you,
Shy away from his touch,
And move forward a better you.
Do not let his touch ruin life,
Vengeance is not the solution for you,
Instead show him you are better,
Stronger and proud now - a better you.
Grow from the abuse,
Show those who are like you,
There is still hope for them,
Because they can now look up to you.
You minus the abuse,
That would equal a better you,
Someone to say,
"He will no longer hurt you!"

By: Alyssa Hellenbrand

"Until my last breath, I will search for some better way, a conclusion not thought of before." - Alyssa Hellenbrand

Smile or Cry? - Original Poem

Pain engulfs my every being,
Yet still I cannot show the world:
How it feels to be me.
Outside everyone sees me smile-
I laugh because it helps me cope.
My happiness you see is a false image,
Something I wish I would feel inside.
Through the deaths, neglect, and depression-
I smile and laugh like nothing is wrong.
Even when all hope is lost,
I continue moving forward-
Knowing my friends and family want me happy.
They know I want to give up and cry.
Continuing on is difficult,
It would be easier to just not try.
Moving on and forgetting the reasons I cry-
Not possible.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Lost - Original Poem

Endless moons was a lie,
He tried and tried but had to die.
I was left on Earth deep in sorrow,
Knowing he would not be back tomorrow.
Closer and closer we had grown,
Up until he became just bones.
His skin was sickly and pale near the end,
Right before he left my sight around the bend.
Thus is the remembrance of those I have lost.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Money - Original Poem

Cash is powerful,
Cash is emotional,
It is what society today revolves around.
Money is your house,
Money is your car,
It is what makes you more impressive to know.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Times - Original Poem

Times are difficult,
Life is hard,
Many paths stand strong,
Sure,
And unwavering.
My future could be anything,
Now I guess it is time.
Time to learn
Time to decide
And I had better choose carefully.
My future could depend on what I decide,
Everything better...
Or worse,
Just because of one decision.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Secrets - Original Poem

Here's an old poem that I wrote a while ago. I'm not sure exactly what I was going through at the time, but I never write something unless it means something to me, so I decided that it may end up meaning something to someone else, too. And so here I am, I post this poem knowing it has flaws, but unwilling to change who I was. This is not a perfect poem, but I hope it strikes a cord inside of you and you like it for what it is - not what it could have been.

I lived a life,

And no one knew me

Except for one or two

Crazy People.

They’re my friends,

They’re the people that know me,

Can you say as much,

I didn’t think so,

Did you know that I cried

When you left me?

Of course not,

You’ve got better things to do!

I really miss you,

That I do.

But no one knows me,

Not even you.

But you think you do,

So many do.

Did you ever think that I might have a secret?

Did you ever hope,

That I’d come back?

I’m not commin back,

Not again,

But I’ll wish you luck

As you try to guess my secret.

Even though,

You’ll never know.

It’s not easily guessed,

Not all that common,

And not a happy one.

It locks me alone,

I can’t tell.

Or else.

Amazing how “Or Else” is always there, 

Always a threat,

Just like you.

You could be my death

If you only knew,

If you guessed my secret.

We’d both be dead,

Bloody,

Cold bodies on the tile floors.

Is that what you want?

Nope.

Didn’t think so.

Bye.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Creation VS Destruction - Original Poem

Creation cannot be the beginning,

For when one is created,

Whatever the created is made from

Is then no more.

For creation is destruction,

And it’ll destroy us all.

The more we create,

The more that fall.


~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Move Forward or Stay Behind? - Original Poem

Move forward or stay behind?
This is something I have always struggled to decide.
Am I to move forward?
Or am I here to stay?
I have to learn how to bend,
To move away from the past,
Without my world caving in on me.
The future seems clouded to me,
The past is clear.
The easier path is the past,
More difficult paths wind into the future,
A place I have to face sooner or later.
So, hey,
Why not?
I'll step forward into tomorrow
But I'll keep one foot in the past,
Allowing me to keep myself
Without completely secluding myself from the modern day.
So again I hear the question,
It rings in my ears and bounces around inside my head asking:
Move forward or stay behind?
And I finally have my answer!
I will do both,
At the same time.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Moving On - Original Poem

The memories are flowing,
Confusing the past and present,
Now I am caught unaware
By the changes in the people.

The cruel and two-faced
Are no longer the same.
Now I can trust them
And know I wont be ashamed.

Trust can be renewed,
Memories can be removed,
And best of all,
New memories can be made.

~Alyssa Hellenbeand~