The Demise of My Smile - Original Poem

Running away from the ones I love,
That is my personality.
Trying to distance myself from the ones I care for,
A mere safety my heart and brain force.

Around the ones I love
There is pain and suffering
Both mental and physical
I try to avoid all of the ways I cause pain.

From physical violence,
Purposeful or accidental -
To mental pain caused
From my distance I seem to need...

All of that is a mere safety precaution.
I hate hurting people I care about,
Yet a part of me seems to not be able to escape
The tendency I have to fear intimacy.

"Push them away!"
"Never let them near!"
"You're a monster!"
That's what my mind chooses to hear.

I hate this part of me
With every inch of my being.
From early on in life,
My anger has always been near.

It hides in the shadows my mind creates for it,
Lurking around the happy thoughts
And planning the demise of my smile.
Every time - It succeeds.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Past and Future - Original Poem

Times are good,
They are flying past,
Will they last?
I hope they can.

Memories are remembered,
Futures are dreamed,
How much is real?
Only time will tell.

I love to believe the good
Forget the bad
Is that wrong?
Probably.

Yet life moves on,
Dreams are made,
Is this the truth?
You bet it is!

So go live your life,
Dream to the fullest,
Can you do this?
With out a doubt!

Embrace the past
Accomplish the future
Will this be done?
It's all up to you!

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Graduation's Bright New Tomorrow - Original Poem

Thirteen years have come and gone,
Countless hours and memories are past,
From my shy encounter with students as I started Kindergarden
To the shaky steps I took away from my mom's safe hands
Into the world of knowledge and people
I would soon grow to rely on and trust to get me through the days.

As I wandered through Primary school
Into a world of laughter, tears, and new beginnings...
That was where the journey began.

Becoming myself came with time,
The walks through Elementary school had me set on a path,
That was where my goals started to form.

Middle school was no easy task as people changed all around,
Puberty hit and hormones changed my friends,
That was where the real friends were uncovered.

The drama and pain hit with High school,
Yet countless memories I will cherish forever were made in those halls
That is where my school chapters end.

I faced graduation with a grin,
My heart heavy with the sorrow of a lost yesterday
But with my mind filled with the promise of a bright tomorrow.

Friends were made after a time,
Best friends grew to be after many withdrawals and issues.
Sure, everyone has their own memories of school,
These are mine.

Pain was suffered,
Friends were made,
And now it is time to keep those memories true
In our hearts as we move forward,
Make our mark in the world,
And strive to become who we were destined to be.

Graduation is never the end,
It is similar to a re-birth,
Just without actually being re-born.

With graduation behind,
New memories must be made now and friendships will be tested,
What will the future bring?

It's time to step into my bright tomorrow
And uncover the world as it waits for me.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Being Yourself - Original Poem

Being yourself is never an easy task,
To be yourself you must
Fight the criticism
Defend your feelings
Trust your heart
Depend on your brain
And destroy
Other's ways of changing you.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~