I'm Finally Happy - Original Poem/Song

Someday I'll be where I am meant to be.
With time, there must be a plan.
Even though the times are rough,
It's never going to be okay

To give up,
To hold out,
To not let myself be seen

To just smile,
Take his hand,
And know I'm finally happy.

I'm finally happy.

With time, I will smile.
I will never re-think the past.
And thanks to you,
I no longer feel like crying.

To be me,
To go hiking,
To not hold out the truth.

To just smile,
Take his hand,
And know I'm finally happy.

I'm finally happy.

Nothing can destroy this,
Unless we both decide.
Hopefully we'll work out,
And my pains will subside.

To be free,
To be myself,
To no longer hold the burden.

To just smile,
Take his hand,
And know I'm finally happy.

Yes.
I'm finally happy.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

A Foot to Stop the Door - Original Poem

A door creaked open;
Thin rays of sunlight snuck in.
My heart is safe again;
The walls around it are re-built.

Now I am able to sit,
Happy with where I am again.
Today I am able to smile,
Thrilled to have learned so much.

Yes the first heartbreak
Is a shattering event to suffer.
Yet it is also enlightening,
No other event wakes you up quite so.

With the goodbye of yesterday,
A door closed behind the memories.
Yet with the promise of new,
Someone had their foot there to stop the door.

With one goodbye,
There is room for a new, "Hello."
With the pain I felt,
There was strength gained.

Today is a new day,
Yesterday is forever gone.
It's time for a new heart
To open up that door and walk on in.

It is the time for trust,
A time to let someone new in this room.
My heart is still protected
By the strong walls surrounding.

Yet,
Tonight...
Those walls are willing to believe again.

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

Creating Something from Very Little - Original Poem

Words create feelings,
Feelings create how we present ourselves.
Once we are presenting,
People get impressions of who we are inside.
With those impressions,
Friends can be made in even the unlikely places.
Upon gaining new friendships,
Relations may grow and people learn to smile.
Sure,
Plans can get changed from our intentions,
Yet sometimes our minds
Weren't yet aware of what we still had to offer.

Here's to the future,Here's to many smiles to come!

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~

My Heart's Walls (First Love) - Original Poem

Brick by brick, a wall was made.
Then, fist by fist, my wall was compromised.
That first time love is found in another person's eyes,
One little look, and everything changes around you.

My walls were left alone while love kept me open,
Those warm eyes made me trust that I would be safe,
Wisely chosen words were there to enforce my love,
But it all turned out to be a scheme of lies and pain.

The love of my life was a joke, a liar, and a cheater.
No matter how much I should hate the actions,
No matter how much I do, there is still endless love.
The person who makes you fall in love the first time...

Your walls both learn to trust, and how to grow strong.
With heartbreak comes a lesson to be learned,
And those who are wise will heed that warning,
Take it in, and change themselves for their protection.

Once the love I felt was destroyed, my walls exploded.
It was like an atomic bomb was set off inside my heart.
Nothing seemed safe, real, or potentially safe.
It took time to fix all of the damage love can leave.

Now, as I sit here and still wonder what happened,
Why it simply meant more to me than it did to my love,
My little warriors inside my heart are venturing out,
Braving the damage that the end left.

The warriors clean the rubble, they prepare me for new,
My heart is polished up, and my walls start to grow.
The warriors make them stronger, set firmer rules.
Now my walls are twice as high, even more so thick.

I have done it now, I should be safe once more.
It will be more difficult for the next love to enter me.
The trust will not come quite as easily as before.
No one trusts the same after a first love.

No one ever feels the same after a first heart break.
Never again do you get to feel so utterly safe.
But, if wise, you can feel impossibly strong.
With the damage all cleaned up...

I have finished re-building my walls.
I have become better.
I am now stronger.
I am now me in an even better way!

~Alyssa Hellenbrand~